i know - three sounds a little indulgent, ha ha!
but i had a similar separation problem, the damned thing didn't know if it was being built, getting blown up or just being a figment - in the end i thought, sod it, let's have all of them!
actually it really helped settle the structure of the thing which sort of has 3 takes on the same subject anyway.

don't be too hard on yourself over word counts - you're doing well enough sounds like - but if you need encouragement i'm happy to read anything you post *hint hint!*

i'll check out that comm.

:))